Trust him.
Fretting. Comparing. Fearing. Worrying. Judging. Wanting. Hoping. Wishing. Lacking. Erring. Deliberating. Procrastinating. Postponing. Trying. Working. Modelling. Learning. Grieving. Sickening. Incapacitating. Immobilising. Paralysing. Frustrating.
Trust him. Let go. Re-frame.
Invigorating. Dreaming. Bettering. Moving. Touching. Giggling. Tickling. Imagining. Creating. Making. Baking. Legoing. Cycling. Walking. Dawdling. Scooting. Dashing. Swimming. Splashing. Bathing. Reading. Singing. Dancing. Collecting. Drawing. Sticking. Cutting. Pegging. Mixing. Painting. Brushing. Helping. Wondering. Umming. Ahhing. Watching. Waiting.
Trust myself.
Struggling. Saddening. Maddening. Gladdening. Improving. Growing. Capturing. Memorising. Building. Breaking. Sitting. Playing. Sticking. Recharging. Giving. Never ending. Loving.
Trust him. Anxiety’s a liar.
2015. I remember the day I wrote this. George was away and I was having a tough time responding patiently to Euan’s craft making meltdowns. In a moment of pause later, while he was absorbed in his drawing, I wrote out all the words I was feeling. The words that screamed “not good enough”, filled me with sadness and made me question my worth as a Mother. I took a deep breath, looked at him absorbed in his drawing, and thought of all the words I was experiencing. And slowly my load felt lighter. Trust him.
Miss your gentle smile, glad I can read your blog! All the best on your journey and keep sharing please, you writing is rich xx Love Nicky xx
Oh wow Nicky, what a beautiful surprise to read your comment. Thank you so much, I feel touched and a little watery eyed! Much love to you all in chilly Scotland x
Same to you and yours Nic! Sending big Spring love, happy growing.
So glad I found this post. I have shared it on twitter, it’s such an important topic you are speaking about. Actually taking the time to reframe what you see and feel and experience is such a powerful exercise. With the Easter holidays upon us, it can be very taxing and make us feel inadequate. I will be trying this little task to get me back into the right frame of mind. Thanks for sharing.
Cherie @mymamamusings
That’s so kind of you Cherie to share the post. It felt quite vulnerable to share my inner thoughts but there’s healing in it and I’m glad you found some hope and encouragement in it too. Enjoy the Easter holidays and finding those moments of pause x